It's the end of the world as we know it, and I'm working towards fine

It has been a while since my first and last post and as pretty much everyone knows by now...the world is ending.
We're about a month and a half into this corona virus lockdown and who knows when it will end. My job has promised to stick with us and do what they can but the future is very uncertain.
A huge update though: I moved out on my own. Unfortunately I don't know if I'll keep my income and be able to make rent for the full year lease. I'll just enjoy it while it lasts.

Anyways...

This post sat around in my drafts for so long but i want to start writing and getting my thoughts and feelings out there. I'm on my own a lot because of this lockdown so I have a lot of time to think. It's been a hard couple of years since I left that tinder life. My self esteem is at a super low and I don't feel confident with how my body has changed. I used to get hit up so much by dudes or even just catch stares in the street and that just doesn't happen anymore. And the lockdown has made me so lazy and I've been snacking a lot so I can only guess that I've gained more weight.
I want to use this time though to get things done and move along in my journey of growth. I took this huge step in moving out which started with my job change, finally getting my drivers license at 26, and immediately getting my car after. Now I want to move towards healing, health, and self love.